Since I often talk about the importance of getting into the Word, I started a series where I share one scripture or passage of scripture each Wednesday and talk about why it has meant so much to me. I hope it encourages you to get into the Word and to use these scriptures as starting points perhaps, but to also find meaningful things in the Bible on your own as well.
Ever since my first miscarriage I feel like I've been on a roller coaster; highs and lows that I feel are out of my control. But I've noticed there is one thing that keeps me stable, and that is God's Word. Hebrews 4:12 says that it is ALIVE, meaning that we can interact and engage with it! When you open His Word with an open mind, He will fill it as you read and you will walk away feeling encouraged, challenged, peaceful, and joyful no matter your earthly circumstances!
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall the be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.
| REVELATION 21:4 |
After our first miscarriage Michael was still working two jobs and often wouldn't get home until after 11 on some nights. Normally I don't mind being alone and reading or watching the shows I want to watch, but for those first few months after my miscarriage it often gave me too much time to think. So coming home to a crying wife became pretty normal for Michael. (Poor guy had been working ALL day and then came home to a sob fest when all he wanted to do was sleep).
I kind of enjoyed getting to cry by myself, so usually when he got home I'd pull it together. But one night in particular I was especially upset. I just felt dead inside and so hopeless (I can't even remember what specifically had me so sad). We were laying in bed and I still could not stop crying deep, heavy sobs. I asked Michael to read me something from the Bible because I wasn't in a place (emotionally or physically) to be finding comforting scripture on my own.
My request was pretty out of the ordinary because Michael despises reading aloud, so I always do because I don't mind it. Usually when I ask him to do things like that he won't do it, but he must've been able to tell that I wasn't in the mood to play games and he just needed to find something.
To this day I don't know how he found Revelation 21 -- did he come up with it on his own or did he google something? I don't know, but it was exactly what I needed to hear that night. He began reading:
And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea. And I John saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God.
I was already feeling better after the first three verses; there's just something about reading aloud God's Word in general that is powerful and calming all at once. But then he got to verse four:
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.
What a perfect verse to comfort someone as she sobs over the loss of her child! This verse felt so refreshing and my soul drank it in as if it were the first glass of water I'd had in days. Michael kept reading through the chapter and a few verses later I stopped him and asked him to "just go back to the good part." So he went back to the beginning and read through verses one through seven a few more times.
This verse just has so much promise and hope! When you're in the midst of heartbreak, the thought of never crying again, never experiencing death again, never having any sorrow again, and never going through pain takes my breath away. I've never longed for heaven like I did after our second loss. The hymn What a Day That Will Be quickly became one of my favorites because it spoke of the amazing things promised in Revelation 21:4. I love this video of the song, but grab a tissue first!
Several months after Michael read Revelation 21 to me I was introduced to The Will To Choose, an Instagram shop with amazing screen printed scripture tees. The shirt featured in the picture above is part of their T-Shirt Ministry; a ministry they started in honor of their son, Will Joseph, who passed away at 3.5 years old in 2009. Patcine, Will's momma, is such a sweet and encouraging follower of Jesus. You should definitely follower her on Instagram!
Since the shirt featured the promise from Revelation 21:4 that had come to mean so much to me, I had to get it! And it was such a blessing that I was able to get one for free with their amazing ministry for bereaved parents. Now I wear it ALL THE TIME because it is such a precious reminder to me throughout my day of what I'm truly living for, and I love getting to share with others when they ask about or compliment my shirt.
Remember to check out what my friend Anne Marie is doing over at The Loved Bible Project! She wrote this sweet post about Wednesdays In The Word and how we are teaming up! Each week I will continue to post about a scripture that has helped me in my time of loss and Anne Marie is going to make a free printable that you can find in her Resources page! We encourage you to print it out and spend time soaking in God's Word as you decorate it and then include it in your own Bible or start working on a Loved Bible!