Since I often talk about the importance of getting into the Word, I started a series where I share one scripture or passage of scripture each Wednesday and talk about why it has meant so much to me. I hope it encourages you to get into the Word and to use these scriptures as starting points perhaps, but to also find meaningful things in the Bible on your own as well.
Ever since my first miscarriage I feel like I've been on a roller coaster; highs and lows that I feel are out of my control. But I've noticed there is one thing that keeps me stable, and that is God's Word. Hebrews 4:12 says that it is ALIVE, meaning that we can interact and engage with it! When you open His Word with an open mind, He will fill it as you read and you will walk away feeling encouraged, challenged, peaceful, and joyful no matter your earthly circumstances!
This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the LORD'S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him. The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD.
| LAMENTATIONS 3:21-26 |
I made the schedule for Wednesdays In The Word about a month ago to coordinate with The Loved Bible Project. So every week I pull up my schedule to see which scripture I am writing about for the week. And this scripture was exactly what I needed today because my heart is feeling overwhelmed and defeated.
This passage of scripture reminds me of so many promises and brings peace to my otherwise frazzled heart and mind. After my first miscarriage I was overwhelmed by the simplest of tasks and even thoughts. It was so hard to think about anything in the future; holidays or other events where I had envisioned myself still pregnant or with a sweet newborn babe already in my arms was more than enough to elevate my blood pressure and start the waterworks. It was also very hard to think about all of my friends who were still pregnant and due around the time I was. Imagining life after their baby was born and how I would feel with my empty arms sent me into a pit of worry and despair.
As I continued to grow more and more overwhelmed by daily tasks and thoughts I began to seek out some help. Lamentations 3:21-26 had been on my heart so I was looking up studies and commentaries about that passage and stumbled upon this life changing article from Desiring God. Upon reading it (you need to go read it, too!), my entire perspective shifted and I suddenly didn't feel quite as overwhelmed. Ironically, as I write this post I am feeling overwhelmed again and needed to be reminded of what I learned. It's amazing how quickly we can forget things.
Above is a quote from the article that so beautifully reminds me of God's sovereignty; I know that whatever I face each day He has either allowed or hasn't prevented. And He doesn't give me the same dose of mercy each day, His mercies are tailor-made to fit my specific day. I can tell you for a fact that I received a vast supply of mercy on the day I found myself in the hospital miscarrying our firstborn. Probably more than I'd ever received in a single day before that.
I find that so comforting. As humans we know that some days are just harder than others.
But when a day is harder, the mercy runs deeper.
Over the past few months I've strayed from this mindset of believing God would give me just what I needed each day. I can easily recall several times recently where I described something as being the "straw that broke the camel's back." Otherwise known as: The seemingly small problem that arose and sent me over the edge into a mental breakdown because I couldn't handle it on my own and didn't believe God was helping like He should.
But God does not expect you to carry even one more straw with the present mercies He has bestowed. When the next straw is added, the mercies will be new!
Even though the scripture says His mercies are new every morning, they are really new every single time the level of pain rises. God does not allow pain without adding new mercies, granting me the strength to bear it.
I recently listened to this sermon about the definition of God's comfort and how we so often incorrectly perceive it as humans. As humans we associate comfort with the relief from pain. But in 2 Corinthians 1, Paul addresses how God comforts us and the Greek word for comfort in that particular passage means to "send for; summon; or invite" not to take away pain. We repeatedly feel let down when God doesn't take away our pain and equate it to Him not being near or not comforting us so we begin to seek quick fixes like watching a mindless show on Netflix (not that I would know anything about that!) to numb the pain. But He comforts us simply by being near and inviting us into His presence; He won't necessarily take the pain away but He will draw us in closer to Him and we can be comforted in His presence and nearness.
I am struggling today, but I am resting in Him, being comforted by the simple fact that He is near and His mercies are ever new.
Remember to check out what my friend Anne Marie is doing over at The Loved Bible Project! She wrote this sweet post about Wednesdays In The Word and how we are teaming up! Each week I will continue to post about a scripture that has helped me in my time of loss and Anne Marie is going to make a free printable that you can find in her Resources page! We encourage you to print it out and spend time soaking in God's Word as you decorate it and then include it in your own Bible or start working on a Loved Bible!